Sometimes I fail to use this thing in my head called a brain. Im highly frustrated at my inability to be the man God explicitly calls me to be. I so often entertain and fuel simple yet immature thoughts and ideas that lead to headaches. No it isn't as if any of these are fatal, but in my failing to be proactive in protecting myself and others from confusion people get hurt. Sure these are small wounds and most would say why are you overanalyzing minute details, but the truth is God wants all of us. Down to the very last minute detail God wants our heart and our obedience. This isnt to be a dictator but to give us wholeness and fullness. In my overthinking and inactivity towards firmly standing for or against things I fail to tell people the truth that would so easily save weeks of confusion." Each of you should not only look to your own interest but also to the interest of others!"!!Philippians 2;4. In this 'me' based society it is so easy to look past what others need and feel and only look for what meets your wants and needs. God may you give us a heart for others, Im so tired of living for me, it is empty, dry, and painful.

john 3;30

He must become greater; I must become less.

This statement made by John the Baptist in light of his disciples and jews arguing over purification. He basically said you are missing the point. It is not your actions God desires but the heart behind those actions. To give your heart to something it must be very important. This is why in most of the things we do our heart is given to only one thing. Ourselves. me. Its always about me. To give your heart up and be vulnerable is hard, which is why it is much easier to give our hands or actions to God rather than actually give him our heart. Giving up our heart can leave us deeply wounded by finding out what is truly in there. In a world with such an outward focus what is it inside of you screaming for more, screaming for truth. it is your heart. We all long to be accepted but most of the time coming clean leaves us feeling like we wont be accepted. jesus says He came so that we may have life and abundantly. In his kingdom there is no one who is undesirable. We are all welcome..when he becomes greater we can lay ourselves bare and be accepted. That's the only true hope well ever have. Eternal significance in a temporary world. Accept the grace again and let go. Embrace that when he becomes greater and we become less we are no longer slaves to ourselves but slaves to Christ who receive life and fullness and joy. Its the paradox for the ages, but its real. Thank you jesus for accepting ones like me...